Today is the 11th of September

i commemorate this day not only because of the thousands of people who died at the Twin Tower bombing, but also because 3 years ago from today, i lost a friend..

I always told myself that after what happened, i will never make the same mistake i did then.

why did i lie? He needed me then.

Russel... *sigh*

why? you had no right to take your life away...

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

up till this day, i have no frickin idea how to save a life... i tried to several times on several people, not once, did i come close...

well i did ONCE! i nearly did but i ended up hurting him...

i wish people would listen to my story... i'm doing all the saving, maybe i'm the one who needs to be saved...

Somebody save me
Let your waters break right through
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just save, save
Come on
I've been waiting for you

Somebody save me
Let your waters break right through
Somebody save me
I don't' care how you do it
Just save me, save me
I've made this whole world shine for you
Just save, save
Come on
I'm still waiting for you